Busy, Busy
FEB 15th, 2023
Hello! Sorry it's been so long since my last post! As you can tell by the title, I've been super busy! In case you didn't know, I'm currently a college freshman at an art university here in the states, and this second semester has been really ramping up! On top of getting some mental health stuff figured out, it's been a lot, but it's good to be getting things in order!
So, what have I been up to? Spending time with friends, staying afloat with taking care of my basic needs, calling in to my long-distance beloveds back at home, celebrating palentines with college buds and valentines over discord, and all kinds of learning! I took a painting class for this semester, and let me tell you: I am not a painter, let alone a traditional artist, so I have been thoroughly thrown out of my comfort zone. The idea is to build a diorama, photograph it, and then paint from those photos. Here's a picture of my last one, and a sneak peak at my final one!
Outside of that, I went to a miniatures and toys museum and absolutely loved it, as well as learned how to model parts for my schools CNC machines in a program called Rhino! For my litteracy classes, we've been reading old-old classics like Gilgamesh, Sappho and Sei Shōnagon's "Pillow Book", and next up is Dante's "Inferno"! Overall, very good, but very hectic for me on the school side of things!
I'm finally on an upswing out of a major mental health episode, and I couldn't be happier about it. I have a routine set in place that's made to help keep things managable so that even on my worst days I shouldn't feel overwhelmed and hopeless. Does that mean I won't feel that way sometimes? Probably not. That's one thing that i've come to realize as someone with persistant mental health struggles: I can prep and plan and polish as much as i'd like, but in the end, I'm a human who needs help taking care of themself sometimes, and that's okay. Asking for help every once in a while doesn't make you a burden, it's what humans do! We care for eachother! If you have similar struggles, try and keep that in mind for me next time you go beating yourself up.
Crawling out of these episodes usually means catching up on a lot of missed correspondance from people that I love, as well as last minute scrambles to the finish line for projects and deadlines I have to meet. I always feel so guilty finally answering back to everyone and everything that I've missed. I don't know what it is about being in that place mentally that makes it so hard to just let people know what's going on, but unintentionally ghosting people is a very bad habit that I am making a concious effort to break.
Okay, I'm officially rambling. Take this Snoopy plush from the museum and have yourself a wonderful day. Until next time!
